Behind Again!

It's Tuesday, September 20th. Stuff happened today, but the evening is quiet. I feel unencumbered. 

It's not that there's nothing to do. School went well, but there's always something I could be planning for or creating. I could do laundry or empty the dishwasher, but it's not mission critical. Carrie's playing Fire Emblem on the Switch. Shane's on the phone playing Roblox with Cole. I don't need to do horse chores and the dogs are both resting.

It's quiet. I'm free to find a way to entertain myself. 

I could....write.

I'm far enough behind it's a little daunting. I lose details when too much time passes. Sometimes I gain perspective on larger stories, but that leads to longer posts which can become a wall of their own. I'm happy to do quick posts, but if it's a big post I want to do it justice.

I'd need to consistently write multiple posts a night or have a dedicated day or two to hammer through the backlog. 

I feel like I've played the rubber band game more this year than the others. 

So much so, I've thought, "Should I keep blogging?"

For now, the answer is still, "Yes." I haven't worried about keeping up with everything else going on, but I don't like the idea of stopping, either. I feel like the blog is valuable to me even if it's not a priority right now. I've had some thoughts about trying my hand at writing fiction for fun again, but I don't feel like I can or should with the blog being so far behind.

So this post is hopefully the breakwater. The best way to do anything is to start.